Monday, June 23, 2014

Sniff, Sniff, Sneeze, Sneeze...

What’s more exciting than just Mom being sick?  How about Lars being sick and just for shits and giggles Dad too.  Who wants to sign up for that week of super fun??? Not us, but apparently that didn't matter. 

I got sick on Monday of last week and felt awful the whole week.  Then, on Friday I received confirmation that the one thing I was trying to avoid had happened……indeed Lars was sick also and on Saturday Bob succumbed to the ‘summer solstice is a bitch’ cold.  And just as a fun little add on, my aunt who watches Lars told me she’s was a victim too.

Luckily, I think I had it the worst in our house.  Lars and Bob both seem to coughing, sneezing and blowing their nose through it much quicker than I did.   

So needless to say my week and weekend have been nothing short of completely uneventful and full of tissues, cough drops, saline nose spray, vitamins, and lots of smoothies.

Because we were all sick over the weekend there was entirely way too much tv watching,Ipad playing, popsicle eating, cereal eating and pajama wearing.  But it seemed to be just the cure!  Everyone’s feeling a little better now and we’re just waiting it out until all is well. 

Got to witness this sweet little moment.  Lars wanted to make sure I knew that he wasn't 'really' sleeping but just resting with Daddy.  Got it, dude. 

Probably watching Ice Age 3 because we had already watched the first 2.  Or maybe Madagascar 3 because we also watched the first 2 of those too.  

My kitchen island for the last week.  Jealous? Yea, me either.  Hylands cough syrup and cold medicine, nose frida, vitamins, essentials oils, tissue, thermometer and a crock pot full of soup.   

By Sunday evening we were all feeling adventurous and headed out to play. It was a beautiful evening and Lars was flying around like an airplane. 

My precious boy with dried peanut butter on his face and most likely a little snot mixed in. 

It was just too pretty not take pictures

Monday, June 16, 2014

Weekends NOT dedicated to renovating

Sometimes....ok most of the time, I'm so over renovating this house.  It's extremely time consuming, it's physically and emotionally consuming, it's hard work, it's cost a butt load of money and I'd like to take cues from my 2 year old and throw myself on the ground and cry about it most of the time.

It's hard to have a 'make the best of it' attitude at times because it all so consuming and takes time away from being together not to mention that it is the source of any conflict in our relationship.  If you want to argue (because that sounds amazing) then start renovating a house.  It's more like bickering but still I'm more than ready to be done with it. I'm ready to have my weekends back and ready to have my husband back.

Wish granted! Well, at least for a couple of weekends.  The past couple of weekends have been such a welcomed break with lots of visitors and lots of family time.

We've had family visit over the past 2 weeks which meant there was absolutely no time for house work and let me tell you....I am completely OK with that! It was such relief not to have to worry about staining, painting, replacing doors or hardware, tiling, going to Lowes,......

We met my brother and his family at Lost Pines Resort in Bastrop and we had a blast! We went last year but Lars was a little young and I was hoping this year would be a little more exciting and it was!! 

We had the whole family at our house. My mom, brother, sister in law and all the kids.  It was such a fun time.  Nana was a very happy camper taking silly face pictures with her babies. 

We spent one day at The Austin Zoo and it was lovely. 

This past weekend Bob's sister came to visit and we hit up the Blanco Lavender Festival, the zoo...again and just hung out.  It was relaxing and exactly what we needed. 

lavender festival selfie with Maureen

Lars and his beloved Aunt Ann and Uncle Art at the festival. 

And of course we celebrated this special guy on Father's Day.  I never thought I could love him more but then he became a father to our precious boy and I experienced a love like no other.  He knocks my socks off!! And I would be an even bigger hot mess without him. Nothing but love....nothing. but. love. 

Monday, June 9, 2014

Losing My Sh*t

Everyone has moments where you feel like you're about to go all kinds of ape shit on the next innocent victim that talks to you, touches you, looks at you or breathes the wrong way.  It happens. It's inevitable. It's OK.

I generally blame PMS even if it's no where near that's just easier to blame her because she can't really talk smack back to me.

I like to consider myself a pretty calm and mellow person....go with the flow if you will.  I try daily to remember what's important, to pick my battles and to know that this too shall pass...BUT, sometimes my emotions and frustrations get the best of me and it's happened a couple of times recently and I hate it more than ever because it's been directed at the most important thing in my sweet baby Lars.

I know as mom's we can't always be calm, cool and collected...we can try but we're human and we have emotions and feelings just like anyone else.

 Lars has been very much owning his 2 year old status lately and most of the time a couple of deep breaths (on both of our parts), some redirection or a walk out of the room takes care of the situation but there's been a few times when I've yelled, gotten really frustrated with him, wanted him desperately to understand my adult reasoning or even just laid on the ground and threw a tantrum with him.  Obviously, not my most shining mother moments, but what's a girl to do?

There are moments when I literally have no idea what to do or how to handle the situation and that's where the frustration comes from.  I've never been a parent this is all new territory.  The little baby that just months ago just needed love, attention and direction now needs discipline and I'm not going to's so hard! It's hard to flip the switch from being just their mommy to their mommy and disciplinarian.

At times I think to myself that this should be easy...people have been raising babies for like a super duper long time, right?  But they weren't kidding when they said it takes a village! And who's to say it wasn't hard a thousand years ago?  I'm betting it was.

When I find myself losing my shit towards anyone especially my child, I know it's coming and for me it's just a matter of finding patience and understanding.  Easier said than done...I know.  But I remind myself that he's acting 2 because he IS 2.  He doesn't see the world like I see it, he doesn't understand what I understand, what's important to me isn't important to him, his attention span is that of a fly.

There are more times than I would like to admit that I have absolutely no clue what I'm doing when it comes to parenting.  I don't claim to know the answer to anything in the realm of it.   What I do know is Lars and I know me and I'm banking that knowing this will help me along the way.

Over the past few months I have found things that work and don't work with Lars.....and with me.  I've also figured out that I still have a lot to learn in regards to a parenting technique (if there really is such a thing).

Bob and I have always agreed that we want to parent out of love and respect and that's hard to do. Sometimes it's easier to lose my shit than to take time to treat Lars and the situation with love and respect.

Lars is such a great kid and I know we have it pretty easy but it's still a challenge everyday being a parent.  Being a mommy and a parent at the same time is tough.  Like with everything else it's hard to find balance but we're working on it.  I'm writing this post in order to make a vow to myself and the blogging world that I'm going to try and lose my shit a lot less from now on.  Not completely, because that's not going to happen but LESS!!!

Here's to sometimes being clueless when it comes to parenting but an expert at being a mommy.

I spent about 15 mins organizing his books (why, i don't know) but he came in and started pulling them out and told me they look better this way.  He's looks way better this way and I was crazy for organizing them.  Taught me a lesson :) 

I asked Lars what he wanted to do and he said he told me he wanted to decorate letters....I asked him what word he wanted to decorate....he said camel.  Boom! Done!

Saturday morning pancake decorating. I clearly need to get some non Christmas cut outs....he thinks every Saturday morning is Christmas. 

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